An ongoing lesson in patience
“Lord if the desires of my heart aren’t your desires for me, take them away.” I feel as though I’ve had to pray this often over the past few months. I have desires that burn within me for companionship and love and lately I’ve been finding myself struggling more than ever to keep my eyes, heart and mind focused away from that. Not because it’s a bad thing but because obviously the Lord hasn’t given it to me yet so I shouldn’t be thinking and dreaming about it. I find myself being very curious and observant of people in relationships around me, one person in particular who’s inspired me and I keep playing my time spent with her over and over in my head about how she handled herself and her heart in her relationship is Shaye….the new Mrs. Regan. 😉 I watched for about six months as she strived to walk in a godly relationship with her now husband. I watched her fail, struggle and succeed. The way she guarded her heart and didn’t allow herself to dream too heavily about the future has impacted the way I desire to live my life. Unfortunately, I tend to find myself in a dream world about 3/4 of my day…I’m still productive at work and conscious, I just multi-task and dream! 🙂 But I am striving to find a healthy place where I’m trusting God daily with my future and with my deep longings and desires.
I know two things the Lord is really testing me in is obedience and patience….some days are better than others but I guess that’s what happens when you’re learning and growing in your walk with Christ. Ya know, this life and relationship is about a daily choice and some days we do better than others. There should just come a point when you’ve learned the lesson and you have more good days then bad days. 🙂
Jeremiah 17:7
“But blessed is the man who trusts in the LORD, whose confidence is in him.”
Deuteronomy 7:9
Know therefore that the LORD your God is God; he is the faithful God, keeping his covenant of love to a thousand generations of those who love him and keep his commands.
Know therefore that the LORD your God is God; he is the faithful God, keeping his covenant of love to a thousand generations of those who love him and keep his commands.
Thank you Lord, for being patient with me as I strive to achieve the path of righteousness you’ve laid before me. I know You are faithful and You will provide!
kels, i love you!
you’re beautiful and wonderful and worth waiting for!! remember that book we read? come on…you’re pressing in for a breakthrough in this area that is going to change the way our generation views relationships and love.
God’s going to give you the grace to press on. You’re worth it!!!!
love you! 🙂
p.s. I’m totally speaking to myself today too! 🙂
Thanks for the reminder…I needed to exhort myself today! haha.
We’re gonna make it!!
Kelsey,
God continually amazes me with how he keeps polishing the beautiful clay in your life as he molds you into the obedient and beautiful woman of God. Keep loving and walking with HIM and HE will give you the desires of your heart! 7 more days til you come home!!!!!!!
love ya lots,
mom and dad
Kelsey,
I can’t tell you enough how proud I am of you. You keep trusting in God and following his plan, that is all you need to know right now. Your future will come soon enough. I love and miss you and I can’t wait to see you tomorrow!