In about two and half months I will be on my way to Mexico for my training before I head off to India. Over the past few weeks I have struggled a lot with thoughts of making this decision to go… I am just really starting to feel comfortable here at AIM and I’m afraid of how things will look when I come back. Yea I know, why I am thinking about “after the trip” when I haven’t even begun. I just feel so good here, I am forming relationships, having so much fun with a new group of people and I have a stable routine down at work. Have I gotten too comfortable? Is it bad when we’re comfortable where we’re at or should we constantly be changing and growing? Maybe I’m expecting too much out of myself too young…I mean, really, I’m not tied down or locked into anything or anyone so when God speaks I should listen and go, right? I am well aware that people will come in and out of my life and seasons will change and so will I. Despite all the unknown answers to my questions the things I do know are that, if this is God and I am called to India, he will provide the finances, he will handle the logistics and he will take care of my need for relationships. He does want good things for me, he wouldn’t lead me down a destructive path (unfortunately, I seem to handle screwing up perfectly well all by myself but thank God for his grace and forgiveness). J
New friends, new culture, new routines are difficult and uncomfortable but I’m sure that with my Beloved at my side (and only with him) I CAN do this. Philippians 4:13 I can do all things through him who gives me strength.
Thank you, faithful prayer warriors for your shouts to heaven on my behalf, you are crucial to my serving the Kingdom. If you would please be praying for my heart as this trip approaches and pray against the enemy as he will continue to try to destroy my joy and confidence during my preparation. Psalms 18:32-34 “It is God who arms me with strength and makes my way perfect. He makes my feet like the feet of a deer; he enables me to stand on the heights. He trains my hands for battle.”
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Kels- You are right on! Though I am going to miss you A LOT, God has plans for you that are so much greater than we sometimes can even imagine! I believe that we need to have a good balance of comfort, you have that, but if you feel God is calling you to something more then take the step. You are absolutely right, if he wants you in India He will bring the money in and if He wants you to stay right where you’re at He will make it clear. It’s all a waiting game, keep following Him and He will show you what’s next. It’s hard to be patient but you can do it! Praying for you…
Going to India is a very big decision. It is a whole new world you face and a whole world that you leave behind. Change, particularly change this big, is very daunting. I will pray for you. Pray against the enemy for planting doubt and worry in mind.
You are a smart, outgoing, fun, energetic, friendly, caring and very loving young woman. You are going to make friends no matter where you are. It’s impossible not to like you. And I’m not just saying that because I’m your aunt, I promise. 🙂 Regardless of where you are, you make friends and form a support group. People are drawn to you. I have no doubt it will happen.
My advice honey, don’t let comfortable become your road block. I’ve let comfortable be my whole life because of fear. Not taking this risk will only bring on regret.
My guess is that you could name a minimum of a half dozen leaders off the top of your head in the Bible who struggled with fear or doubt. And Heaven knows there were many, many more. God told them to fear not for He was with them. Kelsey, fear not for He is with you.
Kels, know I’m praying for you. Change can be hard but it can also be really good. Know that no matter what God is with you and he will bless you in it. There are so many questions that we can all ask but know that sometime we get the answers after the fact. Love you girl and I am so proud of you. Becca
Kelsey,
What good friends and family members you have to encourage your walk with Christ and obedience to Him. This is a very big decision but when you are truly following Christ He never leaves us hanging wondering where He is on the path He is leading us on. Your obedience to follow Christ is evident in the life you are leading before others.
Love and miss you!
Dad and Mom